You know what I haven’t done on this blog in quite some time? Talk about my goals. About writing. About anything truly personal. And maybe you don’t care, maybe you do, but I wanted to do this for two reasons.
One is that if I say I’ll do something, my insane sense of duty will make it happen.
The other is that I could use some encouragement. Advice, if you have it.
I Want to Submit a Short Story Somewhere
I’ve written a short story that I think is pretty good. It’s fantasy and somewhat historical, and I think it’s a fairly diverse work. I had a beta reader/sensitivity reader already, and I think doing much more for a short story wouldn’t be considered ‘worth it.’
So it’s a goal. I’m doing it. I’m going to submit a short story somewhere.
…But First I Need To Figure Out HOW To Submit
How do you know where to submit short stories? I’ve read short stories in places like TOR or Clarkesworld, but where else is there?
So I looked it up. Fantasy, since that’s what the current short story is. There’s a ton of magazines.
But where do I go first?
I read on one of Rachel Poli’s guest posts that it’s a good idea to aim high first, then resubmit to lower journals as you get rejected. But I’m not sure, for me, if that’s a good idea.
Because, Worst of All, I’m Very Scared to Do This
In case you guys don’t know, you can follow me on Twitter. I’m still hrrgorman there.
I got in a conversation on Twitter with Sam Weiss, who encouraged me to submit. Like she said, an author can’t succeed unless they submit things. Unless they get used to rejection.
But oh God, I… I can’t do it.
Part of me just believes that my work isn’t really worth money, that no one would actually ever pay for that privilege (or, worse, they would pay for it and feel regret later).
The other part of me remembers just how terrible the PitchWars process back in August felt. It literally destroyed me: I nearly stopped blogging, almost gave up the ‘publishing dream’ altogether. I decided to hold off on giving up because I had gained quite a bit of headway on the blog, but Lord. That experience set me back quite a ways. Rejection isn’t just a normal fear for me – I’m absolutely terrified. When it happens, I turn into a disastrous mush. I ruin my own life because of it.
Anyway, I sound whiny as hell. Like a teenager or something. But still, I’m not even sure if it’s worth submitting a story somewhere…
Do you have thoughts? Feelings? Suggestions? I’m resolved to try something, and I’ll keep you updated on this blog if for no other reason than to tell you whether I actually followed through on my promise.
Thanks for everything, y’all!